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Tears Fallen
By Kazz Falcon

Tears Fallen
My eyes was troubled
By the sea, I looked up and cursed
HIV gave me a big fright
I shy away from the light
He saw the pain in my eyes from above
Jesus, I sought no more love
Having HIV brought me down to my knees
I cried for help and peace
I tried my best to remain calm
My sorrows laid in both palms
Where’s my life going?
Somewhere out there, coming to a end soon
Tomorrow may never come
Borrowed time I need
My work in this world wasn’t done
My soul was empty of you
I was alone
With HIV, it’s hard to cope
You was my last hope
From my spirit, you released everything negative
Strength came upon me to live HIV positive
Thanks for the gift of life
Against suicide, I put down the knife
You moved me so deeply
Joyful tears fallen


I Slept
By Kazz Falcon

I slept horrible
I kept a horrible secret
I wept alone till I told somebody
He held me in his arms
I was not bold enough to go at it alone
Would my life fold away soon?
I could live 10 or 25 more years
I shouldn’t listen to my fears
He was such a dear
His comfort warmed my heart
I accepted being HIV positive with his help
I slept peacefully


HIV Positive
By Kazz Falcon

HIV Positive
I can’t be so negative
It won’t bring me down fast
I want my HIV status to last
Take better care of me
Make it my #1 goal
Why dig myself into a hole?
My life was on a roll
Going too fast will take a toll
I sat down and really thought about my HIV status
Hit me like a bolt of lightning,
LIVE LIFE
It gave me a reason to enjoy life
I can’t sit there and do nothing
I want to do something
My life wasn’t done, not by a long shot
HIV status put me on the spot
Stay active and do the best I can
I won’t give up for being HIV positive


Shame On Me
By Kazz Falcon

Shame On Me
I blamed others
HIV came upon me
That request I didn’t asked for
I guessed it wouldn’t happen to me
I shouldn’t be so stupid
It couldn’t happened no other way
I kept on doing unsafe sex
I slept with lots of men
I wept like a baby
I accepted being HIV positive
Thoughts about why I did it
I caught me for being so stupid
It taught me a lesson
Why blame others?
Shame on me


The Same Path
By Kazz Falcon

The Same Path
He came upon it
Searching for sex
He doesn’t care about his life
As long as he gets it
It was so wrong of him
Why belonged with meaningless sex?
Sex must be enjoy with someone he care
Trust his loving heart
He lusted after other men
It got him all sorts of problems
In my case, I became HIV positive
Things changed for the better
I waited for Mr. Right
The bait was true love
My past life was HIV negative
I was so sure to be HIV positive
I stopped doing unsafe sex
I didn’t drop my chances of reinfection
He danced for dangerous sex
I hope he wasn’t that stupid
If not, welcome to the same path
 

The Trap
By Kazz Falcon

The Trap
I wrapped myself in a mess
Thinking about it caused stress
Which wasn’t good for my HIV status
The unhappy mood lowered my t cells
I should escape it by going in a shell
It would put me at ease
I could end up in a decease world
Only I don’t pass the problem
I wished I forgot about it
Why dish it out with the problem?
I fished for answers and a solution
It caused me no good
A friend gave me food for thought
“Ignore the person and the problem.
Let it work itself out of it.”
Some stupid things get the best of me
I fell for the trap


HIV Homeless
By Kazz Falcon

HIV Homeless
I lived in Downtown Los Angeles
The shape of my life was upside down
I searched for an escape
There was none beyond my reach
Where was the angels?
Here I was
I was struggling with my HIV status
I need to get out of skid row
I pleaded with the real world
They turned me down
I fell flat on my face
It gave me frowns
I cried from my eyes
I felt like no one believe me
My life melted away into the darkness
The darkness surrounded me
I found one thing left in my bag
“A sound mind?” I asked myself
The sight of things, I had no other choice
This lad was sad
I was mad at the whole world
I was glad it’ll be over soon
It’s too bad; I used the gun on me
Tomorrow’s sun will never come
For this HIV homeless


Changes
By Kazz Falcon

Changes
I opened the door and walked through
I saw my life going somewhere
Whether it’s bad or good
I can’t go back
The door closed and locked itself
I entered a land to explore
I don’t like what I see
I stood in awe
I was there once before
It was a land full of sexual people
They wanted more of me
Some I did before
When would it ever end?
The temptation was there
It whispered in my ears
“Go for it.
The new guys heard so many good things.
Give them a turn.
You won’t regret it.”
I was already living it down
The land increased my chances of reinfection
I really don’t want that
I won’t fall to the prey of lust
A wall shot up around me
Sweet sounds came from God’s angels
I found myself back on the street of life
It was for the better or the worse
Changes


The Last Place
By Kazz Falcon

The Last Place
Wherever it may be
Nobody looked there
Somebody searched elsewhere
Many places before that
I traced my tracks
I can’t remember the steps I took
It happened so fast
I want to relive the past
My life depended on my last HIV test
I want to make the most of my life
I lost my lover to AIDS
Now, it was my turn for the results
Only I find the papers
The result was very important to me
Why redo the test?
I want to rest easy tonight in bed
I’ve been a nervous wreck this past week
Today was my appointment
Where in hell is my paper? There it was
In the last place
 


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