HIV Plead
By Kazz Falcon
I got home from work
My lover wasn’t pleased with me about something
I had never saw him that angry before
We had small fights
Then we kissed and made up
This time, it was quite different
I saw the fire in his eyes
He didn’t hold back at all
He claimed I couldn’t be trusted
I put his life on the line
Dear lord, I had a feeling he knows
I was being so careful with the secret
He accidentally saw my meds in the closet
He was looking for something nice to wear tonight
We supposed to celebrate our six-month anniversary
I wished he didn’t have my apartment key
I should have known better
I thought he wouldn’t ever find out
I wasn’t being careless
I was in the perfect health
I tried to calm him down
I wanted to hold him
He pushed me away
I didn’t mean any harm at all
He slapped me around the face
I pleaded with him to understand
I just wanted to be love
No one ever wants a HIV lover
I meant well
He got to believe that
Yes, what I did was wrong
I should have tell him in the beginning
I couldn’t bare the thought of losing love again
I didn’t want to lose him at all
He was my man, my man to love
I can’t live without his love
He means the world to me
I wanted to be love
What was wrong of loving someone?
He threw the dirty little secret in my face
I put his life at risk, a death sentence
How come I do such a nasty thing?
He claimed I should be arrest for attempted murder
He can’t call the police, he just can’t
Love conquers all
We would get through this together
I promised there weren’t any more secrets
Everything was out in the open
I felt guilty for keeping it from him
Come on, dear, you can get over it
He slapped me again
He made a good point, how could he?
He doesn’t know he have the HIV virus.
It would be weeks to know
I wished I could take the HIV back from him
He doesn’t deserve the disease
He mentioned that I deserved it and even AIDS
Please, I was begging him
Take me back
Take me back
I got on my knees, pleading with him
My tears speak volumes
I need him in my life to love
He wouldn’t heard of it
He gave me the key back and stormed out of my apartment
I lost him forever
God, What have I done?
I only wanted to be love
Is that a crime?
I didn’t want to be alone
I only wanted to be love by someone special
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