Hurt By Love
By Kazz Falcon
I didn’t expect it at all
He didn’t feel any resentful toward me
He was his own lovable self
I thought we became closer, thanks to my HIV status
He didn’t distance himself at all
He went to visit his sick mother in Dallas
I figured he would be back within a week
I was counting the days he would come home
A week was up; he hasn’t come home yet
Nor, he called me either
He may have missed his plane
I waited by the phone
Nothing so far
I realized his mom wanted him to stay for couple more days
I went on with my life
A thought came to my mind
He wouldn’t pick up his paycheck
He was still out of town
So, I decided to pick it up for him
His boss already knew me
I went to his work
The boss mentioned he was at work every day
He wanted to work the late shift
I found that odd
What happened to his sick mother?
I called his mother
She explained everything was fine
She was healthy as a horse
She hasn’t heard from him over a month
God, it told me one thing
He wanted no part of me anymore
My heart broke in a million of pieces
How come he doesn’t want me?
We was perfect for each other
It must be the reason he left
I was HIV positive and he wasn’t
I couldn’t stop crying
Love wasn’t supposed to be that way
He can’t leave me
We belonged together no matter what
I can’t face the disease alone
I need my boyfriend beside me
He was my strength
I can’t go at it alone
God, please let him to come home
I missed him
I still loved him
He just can’t stop loving me
He just can’t
What am I going to do?
He wasn’t that afraid as much I was
I was living with the virus
Damn, I hate him now
He abandoned me
Why, God, why?
He can’t abandoned me
I did nothing wrong at all
I didn’t plan of getting the deadly disease
It just happen
There wasn’t a thing I could do about it
I had to live with it for the rest of my life
Where were my support and my love?
He went out of the door and never returned
God, I hate him for leaving me
Do you know what was worst?
He didn’t have the courage to leave a Dear John Letter
Damn, I was so alone and hurt by love
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